All I Want


Whether you’re a child longing for your Mom or Dad to return home from a long day at work or you’re in love with a special someone and can’t wait to simply spend time with them again, you know what it’s like to desire the presence of someone so much that everything else in life takes a back seat and begins to fade.

This year God is asking me to focus on the simple, yet profound idea of being present with him. I’m convinced of this because it’s completely unnatural for me (right now) to rest like this as someone who has always been more interested in doing rather than being. I’m also convinced that God’s desires for me are always what’s best. Therefore, I’m choosing this year to walk this out, one step at a time.

Now, I don’t know about you, but for me, taking baby steps isn’t necessarily fun, especially because it’s often times difficult to notice progress. But I’m choosing to trust Jesus and pursue what it means for me to be fully present with him.

For now, I cannot honestly say that this is truly all I want, and all I need. However, I can tell you that I desperately want to want it in that way.

So how does anyone move forward with wanting to want something? Do we simply hope for the best, wish upon a star, or find an easy button to push?

You could try, but what I’m finding is that choosing to establish specific habits and rhythms in my life is an incredible help to this journey.

I have a specific space in my house where I go each day at a specific time to connect my heart with God’s heart in a very intentional way. There are also new prayer practices and contemplative activities that I’m learning about and implementing to help me to be present with Jesus. These practices include journaling, breath prayers, daily examine, etc.

The song below has always been a favorite of mine, but recently has taken on new meaning for me as I allow God to speak in fresh ways. It’s a great representation of where I’m headed.

I haven’t arrived for sure, and don’t really plan to this side of heaven, but this is the way in which my heart is beating these days, and I’m looking forward to the journey.


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